Book review

The poetically painful, yet often unspoken, moments in one adoptee's adoption experience

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The Language of Blood by Jane Jeong Trenka explores the painful moments in an adoptee’s experience that are often overlooked, underplayed, or ignored. The author shares some of her innermost thoughts and feelings growing up in Minnesota as a transracial and transnational adoptee with her biological sister who was also adopted by a Minnesota couple. The memoir traverses the landscape of Korea and Minnesota, and the author’s Korean birth family and Minnesota adoptive family with care and frankness that some readers may find uncomfortable, especially adoptive parents. The author’s recounting of her frustrating and disheartening experiences with post-adoption support services through Lutheran Social Services MN, now Children’s Home Society/Lutheran Social Services (CHSLSS), in trying to access information about her own adoption history over 10 years ago was sadly an accurate portrayal common to many aodptees’ ongoing experiences with post-adoption services and support via adoption agencies. The author also gives us a glimpse into her family’s life and experience in Korea, and the circumstances at the time her Korean mother made the grueling decision that the author and her older sister were to be adopted and the lifelong impact of this decision for the author’s Korean and adoptive family.

Skimming some of the online reviews of this book, I found they ranged from supportive, to appreciative, to the not uncommon critique that embodies the “playing a victim, self-pitying, ungrateful adoptee”. Some of the critical comments were made by individuals who identified as either adoptees, adoptive parents, or family members who grew up with adopted siblings. While the author’s story and experience is important in its’ own right, and it is only one adoptee’s story, the reviews highlight the tenuous dance felt internally within adoptees and externally within adoptive families and the larger society between the ideas of “gratitude” for “being chosen/adopted/saved” and feeling of guilt/shame/confusion when adoptees also experience disenfranchised grief, ambiguous loss, anger, and sadness in response to the trauma inherent in the adoption experience.

There is an unspoken widely accepted belief that adoptees who feel anything but “gratitude” for being “chosen/adopted” are somehow “ungrateful, self-pitying, victims.” This false, yet dangerous narrative that is implicitly and explicitly told to adoptees from family, friends, peers, teachers, spiritual leaders, adoption agencies, post-adoption agencies, and media can lead to feelings of isolation, shame, guilt, anxiety, and depression. In truth, adoptees and humans in general can hold two opposing feelings at the same time and both are valid. An adoptee can feel love for their adoptive family and birth family without being it being an either or situation. An adoptee can feel sadness and appreciation for their adoption experience. An adoptee can feel anger and love for adoptive families and birth families. An adoptee can long to search for their birth family and know more about their story, and also love and appreciate their adoptive family. Refusing to allow adoptees, adoptive families, and birth families to have permission to feel whatever they are feeling, and be able to share their own personal stories is only leading to disconnection as individuals and families. Connection, sense of belonging, and validation are essential to our experiences as human beings and individuals part of the adoption community.

Book Review: The Dance of Identities: Korean Adoptees and their journey toward empowerment by John D. Palmer

This book explores the multiple identities inherent of the transracial and transcultural adoptee experience. While the author focuses attention on the Korean adoptee experienced, and is transparent about identifying as a Korean adoptee, the topics around race, culture and identity formation can be applicable in other transracial/transcultural adoptee experiences other than the Korean adoptee experience.

Identity as individuals is multifaceted and complex. Identities have the power to build and divide communities, nations, and families. We identify ourselves by race, gender, sexual orientation, culture, country of origin, region of where we were raised, school identity, familial identity roles, socioeconomic status, political orientation, religious/spiritual identities, etc. And as adoptees, our identities within our families and our communities inform and impact all of our other identities. This is particularly relevant when we are adoptees who were adopted by families of other races and other cultures other than our family of origins.

How identity is approached, explored, and discussed within adoptive families can be an uncomfortable, and yet a powerfully healing experience for adoptees and adoptive families. An important way adoptive families can support and empower adoptees is by initiating these conversations about identity and making it part of the regular conversations as a family versus the approach “ we won’t talk about issues related to identity” until the adoptee “brings up the topic. Talking about the “dance of identities” adoptees face daily throughout their lives also requires adoptive families to examine their own privilege, views, and experiences related to race, racism, and culture.  Being able to discuss identity issues adoptees experience requires adoptive families to do their own work and education to be able to have meaningful discussions that are validating and empowering.

Mr. Palmer’s book validates many experiences transracial/transcultural adoptees experience related to identity, provides a well-informed narrative that may help adoptive families understand the Korean adoptee experience, and is place to help families have a place to start to have these difficult conversations.

Book Review: Reframing Transracial Adoption: Adopted Korean, White Parents, and the Politics of Kinship by Kristi Brian

I'm the first to admit I'm quite skeptical of books about adoption or about the adoptee experience that are written by authors who have no indicated personal connection to the adoption experience, especially as an adoptee. There are a number of books written by adoptive parents describing the adoptee experience, including the infamous "The Primal Wound", which I have not read yet intentionally in large part because the author is an adoptive parent/mental health professional writing a book about adoption's impact on adoptees. This is a book I plan to read as I do understand and respect that it is a book that is often referenced in the adoption community as a primer of sorts on adoption, or as the author notes on her website that "The Primal Wound: Understanding the Adopted Child has become a classic in adoption literature and is considered by adoptees to be their adoption bible." As an adoptee, I think I'm admittedly reluctant and bit resistant to read this "adoptee adoption bible" that is written by an adoptive parent because of my own biases and pre-conceived notions about the book. It is a book that is on my list of ones to read and write up a review of sorts.

Given my reservations about books written about the adoptee experience by non-adoptees, I was very surprised to find how the author Ms. Brian was able to honestly capture the thoughts, feelings, and experiences some transracial adoptees have experienced as Korean American adoptees raised in white families - in her book especially given Ms. Brian is very transparent and upfront in the beginning of the book of the fact that she is white and has no personal connection to adoption outside of her friendships with adoptees.  Ms. Brian takes a deep dive of sorts into the complex and diverse world of transracial/transnational adoption, and explores the hidden corners of transracial adoption - privilege, including white privilege and economic privilege - which are the white elephants within the arena of transracial adoptions. Ms. Brian examines the impact these issues, including the political and historical context of Korean American adoptions, on the adoptees, adoptive parents, and even the birth mothers in Korea. I found this to be a unexpected and thoughtful examination of transracial adoption told by a white individual with no personal connections to adoption. The author seemed to make an effort and take her due diligence in tackling this complicated and multifaceted topic.

Reframing Transracial Adoption: Adopted Korean, White Parents, and the Politics of Kinship by Kristi Brian